Sunday, January 16, 2011

Kissing Onederland

My scales have been kissing onderland (thanks Libby for that expression!) on and off for the past week.  What a tease those scales are!!!  Sitting at 200 lbs is a stalling point for me.  I have been here before....then ballooned again with another 30 plus pounds-in the blink of an eye.  The 200 number makes me nervous and antsy-which makes me wanna snack on salty chips....  Why? Why? Why???  Why is this barrier so difficult-emotionally & physically???  Why do I sabotage myself when I get to this point???  I want to be DONE with this number.  But I'm not eating like it.  On the good news front, I have managed to keep my goal of daily exercising (...and have even liked it a few times...there-I said it).  But I know that I also need to "diet" and eliminate carbs.... the thought of which makes me wanna pilfer my pantry.  So at the end of the day-I need to FIGHT for the the 90's.  And I guess I'm tired of fighting, honestly...  The truth is I wanna slide into the 90's without having to work it...   And we all know that ain't gonna happen....never does.  So  I gotta muscle my way through...  So I'm considering a new goal:  195 by Jan 31st... and that means protein shakes...and control...and perserverance...and saying NO to the salty crap...  and kicking my inner lazy-whiny-fat bitch-to the curb!  ....sigh...  Maybe...
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  1. Jen from OregonJanuary 16, 2011 at 11:12 AM

    You can do it! There is something about that 200 number... UGH!

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  2. LibbyJanuary 16, 2011 at 11:52 AM

    I know you can do this! I have had the same struggle - worrying that I am somehow sabotaging myself right when I am about to get below 200. Just put your mind to it for 1 week. Ban the salty treats. Stick to the band appropriate foods and I SWEAR you will hit your goal.

    Yesterday morning I stepped on the scale and it said 199.8! I know you can do this too!!!

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  3. AnonymousJanuary 16, 2011 at 12:12 PM

    You go girl! My stall has been 240...I've been down that low in the past couple of months, and now I'm back up to 245! I just want to see the 230's so I can claim my 100 pounds lost...but I'm dying to be kissing onederland as well!

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