Monday, June 28, 2010

Small Victory

It was all I could do yesterday to walk away from the garage fridge where my stash of frosty cold bubbly diet Pepsi's were artfully arranged-ready to be consumed in a single, swift grab. Had someone gotten in my way-I would have smacked them down-without remorse. But I resisted. Turned my back. And walked away. A small victory. And really not one worth even mentioning. Not exactly a good vs evil moment... But it was about CONTROL. So my mantra this week is CONTROL YOURSELF. I'm putting on the proverbial brakes and purging THE LAST SUPPER binging. I really appreciated Southern Belle's comments (paraphrased): You will cook and eat again and even find joy in food and serving it to others...just differently and not so much... So stuffing myself (feelings) has to go. I CAN control myself. This morning I made the most simple and delicious Southern sandwich known to mankind: thick tomato slices on an onion roll with purple onion and light mayo and cracked pepper. The kind of sandwich that runs down your arms and you wanna lick the juice off your elbows. And as the last bite went down, I instantly wanted another... But not today... because maybe, maybe...this time...I'll beat this monster...for good.

5 comments:

  1. That is some good control! I was thinking how good an icy diet coke would taste right now... And that sandwich sounds good too - especially with mayo and bacon... yum

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  2. Congrats on turning your back on the frosty goodness! That sandwich sounds amazing, I have been eating tons of tomatoes with avacado lately. They are one of my favorite things about summer. Thanks for the comment on my blog today as well. I really appreciate it!

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  3. I kicked my SERIOUS Diet Dr. Pepper addiction before I was banded as well. I'll be honest with you, I had three cans by the time I got to work in the morning and didn't slow down until bed. This is how I did it: We went on vacation to visit family who do not drink caffeine. Before we left, I bought some caffeine pills at the drugstore and brought them with me. I took a couple of pills every morning, and slowly scaled back the dosage every couple of days. After two weeks, I was cured of an addiction that I'd had for at least ten years. Good luck to you!

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  4. I just found your blog and wanted to say hi. I was banded on 2/12 and have lost more than 60 lbs. since. I am so glad I did it. I still eat all the same foods I did and I still cook for my family so you can tell your husband I said quit worrying ~ lol. That is actually pretty funny that THAT is the thing he is worried about!

    I also enjoyed the NUT story. My fill doc is a total wackadoo as well.

    Keep posting! I can't wait to hear more.

    http://amandakiska.blogspot.com

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  5. Hey! I was sent over by southerngirl. Can't wait to follow your journey!!!

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